A REQUEST TO A TOP GENIUS AND SCIENTIST IN THE WHOLE WORLD

I am just a poor human who has a mere wish ... xD

My gravest request is that you will try to experiment microchips or something9 (what you call miraculous science - made to help humans in his own convenience and life comfort xD) ,that is to inject in some other brain and after he's done his part of learning what I ask to (for instance, helping me memorize an entire book or bunch of terminologies , difficult and complicated formulas, ) I'll take that microchip once done that has the information or learned infos, memorization and critical analysis (for example)

There are things I am capable and am not.Multi- tasking skill may have limits too . You can't do all things at a time right? And when emergency and urgent events happen that only require minimum time , my head is aching ... pressure is inevitable. And I hate it because sometimes just thinking them bring earthquake to my nerves.

Wish I could lend somebody's brain and let her study , examine , analyze , solve , calculate, whatever ... my work if I have some things too to be done.

untidy morning indeed >.<

ym drlow, ym hsart, ym dekcip tuoqes,: the balloon and the wind

ym drlow, ym hsart, ym dekcip tuoqes,: the balloon and the wind: "fb chatmode ^_^ ahw im the wind , i can let you fly my light weighted black ballon to where you wanna go. i just blow where direction you..."

the balloon and the wind

fb chatmode ^_^

ahw

im the wind , i can let you fly my light weighted black ballon to where you wanna go. i just blow where direction you want to
haha

ahw nka tie ako

ah i see then i will wait till that one who ties you will let u go

nsa n date ron?

10

nka tie sa kamot mo^^
ah

but i am also the wind does that mean i am also in cahrge of leeting you go when u want to?

no,dont blow me away from u

what if you're the one to ask me to?

balloon cant talk >.
thats escaping...
haha

cos u cant tell what if im right
tama?


no
mali

i am a sinful human

ur not alone

and i can hurt you beyond your knwing
how can u handle that

well thats a surprise

u had asked me that in the past . and there are so many unexpected things thats worst to happen in the future'
how can u handle that
yeah life is full of surprises indeed

i know..



yea

ym drlow, ym hsart, ym dekcip tuoqes,: IDRAWMYOWNSCARS

ym drlow, ym hsart, ym dekcip tuoqes,: IDRAWMYOWNSCARS: "I've been thinking lately about all the silly things I had done. The ol' films about those bad, worse, worst scenes were playing in my head...."

IDRAWMYOWNSCARS

I've been thinking lately about all the silly things I had done. The ol' films about those bad, worse, worst scenes were playing in my head. They just popped out even I didn't mind it purposively. Like in dreams. Sometimes I caught myself being in deep meditation and I got blank. I don't know by writing my current feelings and thinking here would give me least comfort and ease. I have nobody to share. I didn't have friends in near. I didn't know even to scream aloud. So when I grieve for someone or something, when my wrath has nothing to do to anybody, when I want to rampage, when I'm injured inside.. badly, I learned to whistle it all . Only the wind, my dear wind hears my pain and confessions to my dirty sins. Even I changed a little , or more than little, whatever... the dirty mem'ries never go...they just stay. That's all I'd realized. even I was sorry for those wrongs still they never disappear, they just haunting me whenever they want to pop out like some fictional guardian who likes to annoy me. Why ? I don't believe now that when you're sorry you'll be free from it after. But it does not. Since the day I knew the right and wrong and the morality, whenever silly doings I do, those were judge by the society and even by my own environment, family and friends. And those different judgment heard by my conscience and guilt appear before my evil soul. Even to humans that I caused pain and headaches, even they forget it, that's better , still I can't forget it... it kept haunting me like I should receive punishment till my body will turn to ashes. Or maybe even afterlife, this soul that'll left will be burned in hell. Well, I deserve it that., I had never denied my sins but I know I was sorry for them but I ... to be cont >.<

welcome back

I welcomed myself being back from wandering.

I felt like I'd traveled to many places where I met different personalities.

Some yield me positive results, many weren't effective.

The me has back yet I didn't know if I can face the world being like this... like I used to be.

If those attitudes were gone in an instant then did I just trip myself again from switching?

Ooh. I should make another resolution as to reprimand myself from being silly.

Farewell o' just get oldie' year... sorry for being cold and crazy :) I just might've possessed from such a devil shit that just fucked up your worlds.

I couldn't see anybody now.

I've lost my interest to trip.

But I guess.. switching still...remains.

Well... goodbye to past.

Future? I love it!

well, Everything remains to be seen yet :))

COLD CHRISTMAS

Christmas... Oh.. It is a normal holiday for me. Glam Xmas tree, excitement of everyone, exchange of presence, picture - picture ,togetherness... and whatever they do, casually do when Christmas is here. It's an ordinary day for me, I began to feel that way when I started to live away from my family. I don't feel sad when I celebrate it to anybody else because I don't feel it anyway. But when I used to have you I started to feel the solitude whenever holiday is coming to town.

Needless to say, My Christmas will be COLD.
Snow never drops here,
yet I felt frozen inside the fact I know I will spend it alone.

I only have silver oldies, treasure and pleasure, dear to my heart remembrance here that are safely sealed in my memory. Well, I guess that's the only option that makes me be with you.. again.
I wish for your happiness from a distance...

Merry Christmas Bloo.